London Riots

....My God, seeing things escalate here to such a horrendous level is beyond awful.

Recently happening in our own communities now..on our doorstep,

.mindless, thugs, its just evil.

and now...the 3 killed in Birmingham,
family friends of ours.

my father rang us crying early this morning to tell me.

Ive never heard my dad cry

heart wrenching, my heart lurched. i tasted vomit.

We switched online and watched the news incensed...
.how the lovely 2 brothers & ther friend were killed .

hit and run.

3 lifes lost,
just like that.

a video came up streaming live reaction from the family outside the hospital,
when they realised their son had passed away,
the brother of them...his reaction....screaming, falling,

oh god, sobbbing i curled up against hubby.

What is this world coming to.
Who are we to hurt, loot, damage and kill....

i pray for the family, our community, our country...
i agree with the boys father, pleading for no retaliation to occur.....
its like a horror film that we are all a part of.

Rest in Peace boys....never will you be forgotten.

Hubby

You don't know,
but every night, when i am locked in your tight hug,

i turn and stare at your face,,

studying it while you sleep,

and  i know without doubt that all your faces,

all the masks you has ever worn in your life,  

come out for me
and mine, for you.

You smile
and it is not perfect,

but i think it is.

You sing when you drive,
it's actually pretty rubbish,
but i smile.
every time

Its weird, roughly 4 yrs ago, we never knew that each other existed.

And now years on,
we still eat out of the same plate,

Drink out of the same cup,

Hold hands while we watch tv,

 laugh at the same things,

Think along the same lines.

Theres a natural-ness between us,

A familiarity like we have known each other all our lives.

Now, I don’t think I can do without u.

You cannot stand to see me upset,

Or not smiling.

You joke and play around like a little boy,

sometimes I find myself laughing so freely with u

If I am honest, I have never ever

Laughed like that in my whole life.

Not until I found u

   

When I’m cleaning up or about the house,

Or in the car with u,

Or at my parents house,

I can feel u watching me,  

Silently Making sure im ok, in ur own way,

loving me through those looks,

And I feel a huge cloak of security wrap over me.

knowingly or unknowingly, u are what i needed so badly

Hungry

I love weekends (i get that now is Monday, but i didnt get a chance to blog before nw!)

My secret passion is cooking, i always say to hubby if i didnt work i'd be cooking up masterpieces in the kitchen, he always scoffs and hhis normal answer is ''yeh right''

Weekends tend to be me mainly cooking enough to feed an army, let alone just me and hubby.
I always end up sending fully crammed food dishes to all my sisters houses and brothers to finish it off.

Sunday I cooked chicken biryani (spicy masala rice mixed with lovely cooked chicken pieces), some channeh masala (chickpea masala) and lamb kofte kebabs. mmmmmmmm.



although cooking without being able to taste how it is really sucked (due to Ramadan, still fasting!). Had to take a leaf out of Mums book and guess all the seasoning amounts.

but waiting to eat it was even harder

by the time fasting for the day was over, it was about 9pm ish here,
 my hunger pangs had nearly gone and i ended up eating only a plate
(i would normally stuff myself with at least 3 plates)

made too much as usual and ferried some across to the sisters. 

So need to book time off work and just delve into all my unopened cook books and go for it <3

Gifts from a far away land :)

Mother In Law sent in a lovely package of very pretty eastern outfits from her Far Away Land,

had to say it lifted my spirits (receiving gifts would lift any self respecting girls spirits),

especially since locating good quality eastern outfits here in my neck of the woods is always difficult.

black is like my ultimate fave colour for the moment!!)

My room looked like a pig sty, well, correct that, not my room, my house, one of the joys of it just being me and hubby living at our place is that i do tend to wander around changing in different rooms and checking out my outfits in all the other mirrors (every mirror makes an outfit look different in my house!), throwing discarded clothes on the floor.

I think my fave is a stapless one, got a big engagement party of one of my besties coming up, perfect outfit to wear :)

Rang Mother In Law to thank her, she was lovely today, no mention at all of how many times have me and her son had sex this week and whether we are doing it right. Thank the Lord.

Works been completely ruling my life recently. Deadlines, research and more research to do.

Told the Boss in a team meeting that as I'm fasting suring the month of Ramadan, PUH LEAZE do not expect my productivity to be as amazing as it normally is.

Cue The Boss and his dry humour (which i do admittedly love). Spent the next hour with us all chatting and debating the facts of fasting etc. (My stomach rumbled a few times in there which i felt was quite relevant)

They all wear eating panini's, sandwiches and salads and repeatedly apologising for eating in front of me

''Oh comeeee on guys, I've been fasting every year since I was like, 12 yrs old I think Im used to seeing ppl eating in front of me!''

Cue giggles and louder munching noises, and a few burps frm the guys. Standard.

To balance out the stress I went shopping with my besties that evening and fell in love with the most gorgeous suede ankle boots

Seriously, arent they the cutesttttttt ankle boots ever?

I will be not taking these off my feet for a long time to come, i told Hubby i'll even wear them in bed.

In hindsight I really shouldnt have told him that in the month of Ramadan, since 'physical sexual activities' during most of the day is not allowed.

By the time the fast is broken and we have eaten and prayed, you literally have no energy to even think about any physical activities.

Is it wrong to be relieved?

I mean com'on, 3 yrs of constant trying makes me a very tired girl,
 im loving a month of relaxing sleep without sticking my legs up aganst the wall for half hour after each session.

In a way, this month is just what I need, a detox for the mind, body, heart and soul, closer to God, and a month of reflecting and making yourself a better person.

Oh, and a lower food bill :)